2 mo. checkup and Thankfulness!

Poor little Cadence. Today she went for her 2 month checkup and had her shots. I have been dreading this visit since the appointment was made. I just knew I would cry and I was right. I managed to hold it together until the nurses left the room, but after that I just grabbed my sweet girl and cried with her.

We take her to Parkside Pediatrics and we absolutely love them. They are such strong believers and they really do care about their patients. The nurses told us how it would go down: two nurses would come in, give her an oral immunization, and then both nurses would give her 2 shots each at the same time. I'm glad they do it this way so she wouldn't have to suffer for long. Bless her heart. She was all smiles and happy, not having a clue what was to come. But boy after they gave her those shots (which happened very quickly, thankfully) she screamed and cried like I have never heard her. The nurse quickly handed her to me and I just held her and loved on her. Like I said, I didn't cry until after the nurses walked out. All day today I have loved on her and cuddled her. She is needy like her mom when she doesn't feel well. :) She's pretty much slept all day and cried here and there. Poor baby.

I love my little girl SO much and to see her in pain just broke my heart. Now that I am a mommy, I tend so see things with a new pair of eyes. It really has made me see the love of God for his children in a new light. The love I have for Cadence, I cannot describe. I can't imagine how much God loves her! I have to remind myself that she is His first and that she is an awesome gift that He has given me to raise and to love. I pray every day for her salvation and for her heart. I pray she has a tender heart and a gentle spirit. I pray that she loves people and has a desire to see others come to the Lord. I pray that she loves herself and that she won't settle. I pray for her husband and for his heart. I pray for so many things for her.

Something else...I can't say enough how thankful I am for being able to be a stay at home mommy. God is so good and has provided in ways that I can't even explain. Ever since I was a little girl I have wanted to be a stay at home mommy. When Matt and I were dating we discussed our dreams for our future and me staying home was definitely something we discussed a lot. Without going into great detail and writing a novel (which I definitely could write a lot about God's faithfulness and goodness), I will say that God has blown me away! He has given us everything that we need, when we need it and right when we need it. Matthew and I prayed for a specific salary (something we came up with after crunching numbers-trying to figure out how I could stay at home). We had faith God would provide, but just didn't see how it was going to happen. Sure enough, Matt called me one day from work and told me that he had talked to his boss and his boss offered him a raise-TO THE DIME-of what we had calculated for us to need in order for me to stay at home. We were floored! God blew us away! He has blessed us so much and we are so thankful. I am truly living my dream. I serve a God who is gracious and faithful and amazing...and the list goes on. I am married to an amazing man who loves God and who loves me and who is an amazing daddy. I have a daughter who is healthy, beautiful and precious. I get to stay at home with her and love her. I have a phenomenal family and phenomenal in-laws. I have great friends. I have a church that is wonderful and a pastor who is a great teacher and leader and is unashamed of the gospel. God is good and I am thankful! I love my life!

So this post was a tad random and covered various topics. I apologize for the "off the wallness!" haha. I'm just writing what is on my heart and what comes to mind...a little spastic, but hey-I'm a little spastic. :)